Where to go from here? 

A week ago I thought I was getting stronger and bigger from my gym workouts. Correction I’m getting stronger and smaller. This wasn’t my goal. It is just the way things have turned out. I’m as small and light as I’ve been probably since at least 1988. 

What got me to where I am will not get me further on my path. I have to do and think differently if I want to be different than I am, to develop, to grow. Thinking differently is how I got to here on my journey, I changed my thinking. I changed in many subtle way, mostly unconsciously. Staying with the same thinking will leads to staying where I’m at. It is like enlightenment, it is not a 'once and done' thing. Movement on a path wants updated thinking when new goals or new information is encountered. Bayesian.